I never know what's eating away Inside my head, it's always a mess I started thinking something's wrong (So wrong) When I heard what I just said I thought I was doing fine (Oh no) Didn't notice at the time Then I come crashing, Then I come crashing down Just like an airplane Falling out of the sky - down "Hey now, settle down" Oh, how I wish I could And it seems like nothing goes my way And I'm filled with negativity And I beat myself up Any way that I can I can never see in time (Never) What you have seen for days Keep telling myself it's fine (Oh no) And ignoring all the signs It's not supposed to, Supposed to be this hard To realize that You can't keep pushing this - down Deep down, in my heart I've always known this It's so hard to change the way I've thought For years, for almost half my life Only beat myself up And put myself down The years go by but I just stay the same I try so hard but I can't see a change Can never tell why I feel this way So disconnected and far away Inside my head I'm full of doubt I never know what's eating away Inside my head, it's always a mess