Mental disorder Psychiatric disease Violent compulsions They're all part of me It's easy to judge this Accuse, disagree You all turn your back when You should have helped me They say it's in my brain My way, my destiny Written in my blood My flesh and my dreams The truth is I grew up Emotionally abused Tearing my soul down All thanks to you Maybe there was another way But I took their lives because Zero remorses Lack of empathy Memory lapses Delusions of control You thought I was harmless The neighbor next door While in my basement I'm hiding your corpse I'm sorry but it's late To redeem me from my sins There is no good, There is no bad We live right in between I really wish that I was dead But I can't kill myself So it doesn't really matter If you cannot understand Maybe I deserve to pay But it doesn't feel right cause