I been tryna recover But this soul tie shit been driving me insane I'm in the passenger's seat and the doors are locked So I can't get out like I just got detained I try breaking the glass but I didn't get far Now I got a 45 up to my brain She told me don't move I been lying to my fans When I say that I'm okay cus' She comes and goes I get too close My heart on froze I can't let her go She comes and goes I get too close She lets me go... Just 1 night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says let's go My mind says yes but my heart says no She came and she went, now I gotta recover But I'm trapped in the same damn cycle She like my rival, star crossed-lovers I'm holding a knife but she holding a rifle I know what she's on so I'm taking cover I'm ready for war, but I gotta be mindful Holding back, now she feeling entitled Excuse my french, build a tower then I fall Fuck, I think now that I'm healing I gotta stiffen my lip and stand right up It's fucked cos I really been slouching Feeling sorry for myself like I'm worth nothing Get the fuck up the world still counting Cuh the world don't stop for any damn thing So get up! You better start grinding Just get the fuck up! And stop all this crying Every day I been getting so close to my dream They say I make hits when I pick up my pen I think I found myself It's going so well but how will it end? I'm back on track again So there's no way I can lack again But what if I turn my back again So I turned my back and she back again FUCK! She comes and goes I get too close My heart on froze I can't let her go She comes and goes I get too close She lets me go... Just 1 night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says let's go My mind says yes but my heart says no Somehow she's back again What the fuck do I do? I don't know what to say I'm fucked I know I shoulda blocked her account I did, but she made another one same day I hate it so much that my dm's are open I can't close them cos I love my fans I try ignore it but she knows where I am And I can't get away so I let her land The same damn girl that was fucking me up Way more than once, am I fucking insane? Justify what she did in the past I'm thinking its calm, might give her a chance And this is what love just does heart Makes you a dartboard, vulnerable to your half If they want a bullseye then they're gonna get it They'll close one eye and aim straight for your heart And that's why I'm so twisted Now I'm back in this constant cycle I couldn't give a fuck if my heart's so vital I'd rip that out for the person I'd die for I don't know if it's love Or I just love hard or I guess I'm a psycho Anyways if you feel like me We'll get thru it soon... and it's like I been tryna recover But this soul tie shit been driving me insane I'm in the passenger's seat and the doors are locked So I can't get out like I just got detained I try breaking the glass but I didn't get far Now I got a 45 up to my brain She told me don't move I been lying to my fans When I say that I'm okay cus' She comes and goes I get too close My heart on froze I can't let her go She comes and goes I get too close She lets me go... Just 1 night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says let's go My mind says yes but my heart says no She comes and goes I get too close My heart on froze I can't let her go She comes and goes I get too close She lets me go... Just 1 night and it turns to loads I don't even know if I'll make it home She comes and goes, she says let's go My mind says yes but my heart says no