I'd give anything to feel that way again, it's all pretend Nervous virgin skin, natural infatuation These things used to excite me, now it's just an addiction Detached lifeless sex, sick dopamine injection Dream of you clean and sober, highs fade and lows get lower We're dope sick on the floor, I felt your heart beat slower You said you're fine with dying by my side I wish I could say I feel the same Your pheromones are drawing me in Young and full, but now I am jaded That foul pink is the worst thing I've tasted We're hiding beneath a sweet wet sin Laughing off the long and awaited Ending on everything i hated And as i'm pulled into your perfume dream The feelings fade under the silken sheets Is this what we wanted to grow up to be? (Is this all some kind of joke to you?) Ten years in and we're getting desperate Your good intentions are weighing me down We're full of plans but we're empty handed Your good intentions are weighing me down Is this all some kind of joke to you? I'm not who I wanted to be She didn't even come to see my band, Now i'm the stranger in the old white van Your parents said that you should never trust, I guess that all we have to fear is lust He didn't even come to see my band, And i don't really have a 5 year plan Is this all that it takes to make them swoon? Would you possibly wanna fuck sometime soon? Ha! Good One! If the Earth laughs with flowers we seem to be wilting away Just disgusting fucking lusting for you now I'll conform i can fill any void that you need Just disgusting fucking lusting for you now Tension forming, come and fill your void with me Razorblade bracelets Blood in the blanket One foot in the grave one stuck in the pavement Watching the world pulled up in the gravity Leave me behind clawing up at the sky to breathe If this is all a joke I'm not feeling inclined to laugh it off Pink cloudy head, never getting where I would like myself to be