Yeah I already know Mixing all these chemicals I'm feeling kinda slow Runnin out of options feel like I ain't in control Runnin up a bag but we always on patrol Got a couple demons if you really wanna roll I got Devil tendencies I'm trynna keep control It's a fast life, forever I ain't ever getting old I done showed her my pain and she left me in the cold When I open my heart, they just always wanna fold They just want the Dior, then they run out the door I just want something more, can you love me for sure Can you love me for me now My love expensive but you got it for free now I spent love that I wish I could get back I got spirits that done saved me from attack I done loved you for sure, but baby not anymore Addicted to your toxic gotta kick it for sure I got some addictions, live my life in fictions They running automatic but I been running stickshift Running from reality, dissociating casually The devil's just consumer and my brain is just a factory Feel like I'm at my end Ain't no time to repent Ready for whatever's next Walk up in a room spike it up like Johnny Test Bitch you don't even know me Baby that was the old me I been living faster but my heart is beating slowly Nobody owns me this is my testimony I'm just trynna last take my pain by my lonely Tell myself I'm living my dream Call me captain codeine Oxycodone in my bloodstream I know it's hard to love me Addicted living fast and I'm sitting in the front seat Yeah I already know Mixing all these chemicals I'm feeling kinda slow Runnin out of options feel like I ain't in control Runnin up a bag but we always on patrol Got a couple demons if you really wanna roll I got Devil tendencies I'm trynna keep control It's a fast life, forever I ain't ever getting old I done showed her my pain and she left me in the cold When I open my heart, they just always wanna fold