I been making bad decisions for the sake of the thrill
Don't want to throw it all away but I'm scared that I will
I got angels all around me and I know they would hate me
But the demons in my head, they never escape me
I don't know where to go from here
Pour it up and sip again till I disappear
And I only have the drugs to catch my tears
I want to take all of this money and disappear
Spill my soul up in the studio to sunrise
Demons got me pushing, I been fighting on the front lines
I tried to smoke it all away, I smoked a million backwoods
Had to get back on the percs, cuz they killed the pain that good
Living day to day, I think I lost my direction
I'm losing friends at every step but it done taught me lots of lessons
Living off faith, losing all my expressions
And I done missed a lot of things cuz I be going through depressions
Blow another bag just to get another necklace
I don't feel I'm in control my life has always been so reckless
Toxic love and it's killing my self esteem
Told her I was off them percs that's why I'm sippin' this codeine
Always cared too much I gotta learn to let it be
Lately my mistakes are weighing on me heavily
Tell me why it's always someone instead of me
Even though you know it's no one else ahead of me
Always paint me as the enemy, scars are getting deeper
Broken but I'm still a dreamer
Had to put my heart in the freezer
I didn't wanna do this either
Blue bills went and turned into my North Star
Looking all around me wonderin' where my supports are
Money runs the world, and love is make believe
I been off them pills and I ain't talking no Aleve
Walking like a zombie I be lost in my own head
When I hit the grave I made my own bed
I got problems that I don't even know yet
Everyday I'm asking if I'm ready to go yet
Asking me what I'll find
Cuz I done hit the bottom like a couple hundred times
Couple lines, you can't have none of mine
Wasn't there when I was down, now you want some shine
What has life come to now
Pushing all the lines is the only thing to do now
See you in the next, it was nice to know ya
Time to say goodbye cuz it's time to go (yeah)
I been making bad decisions for the sake of the thrill
Don't want to throw it all away but I'm scared that I will
I got angels all around me and I know they would hate me
But the demons in my head, they never escape me
I don't know where to go from here
Pour it up and sip again till I disappear
And I only have the drugs to catch my tears
I want to take all of this money and disappear