I hope my absence haunts you like a ghost
Eating away at you from time to time
I know I'm absent from your life and mind
But you still haunt mine
There's a different kind of emptiness you left me with after all of this
And I can't wrap my head around the fact that you're not coming back
There's a chemical imbalance that you left inside my brain
You're the reason why the alcohol's still rotting in my veins
And I'll be okay, this is something I can get through
(Something I can get through)
But I don't know if I can say the same about you
♪
I know a world of stability is all that you could ever see
And when everything falls apart
Dear God, I know it'll fall apart
I hope you buckle at your knees
And think of me
I'll leave you with this emptiness as your parting gift
These heavy words I know you can't lift
(Between the two of you, there'll be a common rift)
And that's me (that's me), the problem you can't fix
The chemicals have balanced as I'm writing off your name
I hope the thought of us and broken trust stays frozen in his brain
And I'll be okay, this is something I can get through (get through)
(Something I can get through)
But I don't know if I can say the same about you
Truth be told, we are not the same
A future sold that was built on blame
I pray you can't bear the guilt and shame
I'll stay a thorn in your side that's worn with pain
Day in day out it won't get better
Even your friends say forever fair-weather
Stay stuck
You're a stormy sky with an idle mind, you deserve each other
And I've been picking you apart in my head
Trying to see between you and me if there was anything worth keeping
I'm empty-handed once again
Constant consent
You lied to him about the time we spent
Relapse, repent
Your judgement lapse came and went
You said that life was built on compromise
A statement laced with fraying ties on borrowed time you'll never find
So in the end you took what was yours and stole what was mine