I feel so alone
I hate that I feel
I love this life but I do despise these lonely hrs
I'm building towers inside my mind
I'm wasting this life
We wasted our time
I'm getting wasted tonight
Please stay here with me
I'm fucking faded right now
That's when the pain starts to leave
I love this life but I do despise
These lonely hours
I'm building towers inside my brain
From these fucked up memories
I try to clean up but it's so messy
Inside my mind
I'm wasting time
Perfecting my story
Just drawing on paper
It turns to ashes I'll finish it later
I got these matches we got this pain
Let's burn it down then sit around an tell these stories about the past
An hold that feelings
Until it passes
Rolling these memories
On this paper
They turned to ashes but it does not even phase me
I'm loosing passion just hoping you'll save me
An I'm so goddamn tired but I'm only 18
I hope hear the words I'm saying before it's all to late before I can't feel a thing
I hope the pain goes away
I know you see on my face
That I can't even understand why I try to hold all this in
I feel so alone
I hate that I feel
I'm wasting this life
We wasted our time
I'm getting wasted tonight
Please stay here with me
I'm fucking faded right now
That's when the pain starts to leave
We living this life
We stressing these things
It's hurting inside
It all changed so fast
Now I'm alone in my head
Trynna forget what you said
Do you remember how you acted
I'm speaking in past tense
Contemplating every moment changing
I just hesitated before my medication
Now I'm going crazy
Feeling separated from the world itself
Girl I needed help
But you were not there
Had to love myself
Cause you were not yourself
Now I hate myself
Cause I don't want you near
I love this life but I do despise
These lonely hours
I'm building towers inside my brain
From these fucked up memories
I try to clean up but it's so messy inside my mind
I'm wasting time
The pains disguised
Stuck in my mind
I feel alone
I can't get home
I don't know why