Tired in the night, something we all do, holding of our hearts even when not true Running through your mind, 'til you're tired on the floor You know what's gonna happen And that makes you want it more And I'm so close to crying I've never worn a bigger smile And I'm so close to dying I've never felt more alive Raping in your skin, keeping myself warm I know it's going nowhere Never felt so far from home Watching in your eyes, but they are not just down there I see that it means nothing and the more you never care And I'm so close to crying I've never worn a bigger smile And I'm so close to dying I've never felt more alive ♪ Singing songs about the future, when you can't hold the two Tumbling into ecstasy, when it's all that you can do Looking up when you are blind, but you see everything Voices in your head, shouting out through it all again And I'm so close to crying I've never worn a bigger smile And I'm so close to dying I've never felt more alive And I'm so close to crying I've never worn a bigger smile And I'm so close to dying I've never felt more alive I've never felt more alive I've never felt more alive