I look back on the books of my life I've written so well
Father, I fell
Father, I fell
For coveted girls and the sins that follow them
I have loved and laughed enough for half a battalion of foes
But nobody knows of my inner demeanour but thee
♪
Nightmares, slink in their dark lairs
Thinking of plots where
Everything rings with the sting of depravity
As thou have seen I have not always danced on the edge of the world
I have oft lost my mind
In labyrinths, blind
And broken my bread with the flies
I just don't want to die
Without thee by my side
Sated and beautiful
I will struggle with keys at the gate
Never a saint, far from decency's grace
True to my heart
Bearing off-the-chart latitudes
Father, I fell
Father, I fell
A reckless rakehell with misdeeds that still honor me
I see now that beauty held me mesmerised under a spell
Father, I fell
Father, I fell
Down slick mythic wells
Where emptiness swallowed me
I have lived and gasped enough
For more than ten thousand shadows
But nobody knows of my innermost demons but thee
♪
Nightmares, slink in their dark lairs
Eyes are aflame there
Waiting to sink their despicable teeth into me
As thou have seen I have not always danced on the edge of the world
I have succoured and fought
Like a fucker for naught
But the right to be left to my dreams
♪
Finally soul I am free
Joyously thralled to recalled memories of yore
So before I pass I must see thee if only once more
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Oh my beautiful friend
I will love thee until the end is nigh
And in time
I'll find thee in my arms on the vast other side
Father, I fell
I look back on the books of my life
I've written so well
Father, I fell
Father, I fell
A reckless rakehell with misdeeds that still honor me
I see now that beauty held me mesmerised under a spell
Father, I fell
Father, I fell
Down slick mythic wells
Where emptiness swallowed me