I been on my own (on my own)
Right beside me, I've been on my own (on my own)
Even though you're right beside me
I've been on my own (on my own)
You can try and hide me
I've been on my own (on my own)
Think it's about time I do my own thing
Shock everybody on the web, I seen 'em posting
And I can see the haters switching, doing full swings
But I ain't finna pick it up, I let the phone ring
They wanna keep me down, they wanna hold me
But they just getting mad, they can't control me
If you tryna find me, I'm where the throne be
Back In days, It was the gutter they had thrown me, yeah, yeah, yeah
(Even though you're right beside me)
I've been on my own (on my own)
You can try and hide me
I've been on my own (on my own)
I'm living my life as a lie for the people I love
And it got me feeling the pressure that's holding me down from above
Feeling like no matter the blessing we ain't getting out of the mud
My homie died In my hands, had to say that It was what It was
It's like my future is blinding, I'm lost In the ocean of options
And they want my success, but not for me, It's just for the optics
I'm exhausted and weary, being honest, I nearly defaulted
To the old me, the cold me, hold me baby, she soft as cotton
I got failure on my conscience
While I'm sailing through a mosh pit
And she's scared she'll be forgotten
All that venom is a toxic
They said that I couldn't accomplish
Tryna act as my accomplice
All this faking got my nauseous
Took my heart and then you lost it
Took my heart and then you lost it
Took my heart and you lost it
I drew the line don't cross it!
You decided, you lost it
They said I couldn't accomplish
I ain't got no accomplice
All this faking, so nauseating
Failure all on my conscience
Failure all on my conscience
Getting carried through a mosh pit
She's scared she'll be forgotten
All that venom Is a toxic
They said I couldn't accomplish
But I ain't got no accomplice
Failure all on my conscience
Aye, aye (aye, aye)
I seen the memes, the schemes, the daydreams
They been tryna manifest
I seen the hatred, I'm In the matrix
Some things you just can't affect
I seen the lie In the truth you been clinging to
To justify what you been through
I seen the sky isn't blue
It's been dimmer hues, since the last time you swing through
Never Intrude
Baby In truth, I done missed you, so bad It's embarrassing
But If I told you I loved you, the universe would call It heresy
Give me some clarity, I think both of us needin some therapy
Needing full transparency
Needin full sincerity, real loving is a rarity
Real loving voluntarily
Real love's involuntarily given
The fans love 'em, but they can't touch 'em
And they can't build solidarity with 'em
He gon' up, his popularity risen
But no one else can really share in the vision
When I'm alone I feel the air Is a prison
Nowhere to bear the wear and tear I've been given
Nobody care to spare a spare, or share the care
I need repairing, It's apparent, listen
Scared to bear it with a parent, they could share it
Mask on, wear it, just to keep it hidden
They know that he carry secrets with him
But they can't know the struggle deep within him
And they mean well, but I seen hell
Everybody tell me how I should be living
But listen
You see
People will do this, weird thing
Where they'll look into their past
And tell you your future, is set in stone
Nah
Nah not me
Nah
See
I'ma do my own thing