Visions of my childred wiping tear from open eyes
As they Kneel baside my coffin family say their last goodbyes
But ita the faces of my babies got me trippin thankin god for breath
Expressions filled with pain has got me strappin on the vest
And I know that I aint living right I hang on borrowed time
And this life's gome leave them bastards cause they pops has got to grind
Little mouths have got to eat so I hug them hit the streets
Spittin time with them and money got me feelin incomplete
And I aint scared of any mothafucka fight the flames of hell
But a child without his dad has got me hiding in my shell
Got me shikin in my boots to see them face this world alone
Are the strong enough to cope stuck in half a fuckin home
As I lay them down to sleep its all on me their soul to keep
And if I die before I wake I pray to
God he's up there waitin
With an army full of angels strapped with gats cause
I'm defying
Since I first became o father only fear I have is dying
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me
(Blaze)
After all that I have ever done
And all that you will ever see for life
Death beyond the grave
How will they remember me
I only fear the lost of my voice
When its gone
The only noise is the pen
Im a writer by choice
I can cut my tounge clean off
And smoke myself toothless
I still be on the mic
Spittin shit they call ruthless
The truth is
I go deaf dumb and blind in one ear
And be the dopes deaf dumb blind guy you ever hear
I aint scared of dyin
Death I've been there
The pine box for many years
My return aint bull aint no reincarnation
Get lost in translation
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me
(Monoxide)
Eyes open but I dont remember much
I try to focus but the light is bright as fuck
I go to sit up but Im strapped and stuck
Stuck panic cant say nothin
Like my jaw is wired shut
How the fuck did get to where I am is still a mystery
My memories not assistin me
As I lay here in misery
Literally hopin some body would give me some kind of time
Im I dead of alive
Is this a dream or a sign
Is there a chance I can find my mind and rewind
But paint me behind blinds and find somethin
Its like a game but nobody told me we were playin
And the fact that I dont know if Im alive and sane
And inside my brain only one thing remains
The fear of no knowing paralyzes all most everthin
An second can be my last breath
And my best guess is nothin with on memories left
Im sorry
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me
This situation has got me losting sleep
I can not eat
Im feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me