It was 2013 I had everything to prove
Daughter just came and I was fresh outta school
Sitting in my room thinking what is there to lose
Sink or swim you gotta choose
I was down in the dumps
I ain't see Phani in some months
This when Killah used to pack a nigga lunch
Fell out with Duke I loved that nigga a bunch
Never seen 'em do it but I always had a hunch
Showed too many signs grew wings but I couldn't let it fly
I was tryna live so I had to let it die
Grieving take time bitch shut up and let me cry
You ain't never gon' make it if yo ass never try
Could see it in my eyes I was terrified
I was scared to live I wasn't scared to die
Living with the pain and living with the why
Wipe the tears then look into my daughter eyes
Got a text
Followed by a call making threats
I was on the defense but wasn't stressed
Started playing chess
Couldn't tell the ones who know me best
It spilled over and I had to clean the mess
Had a 9 to 5 but most the overtime was a lie
I was tryna put em in the sky
It's hard to feel alive when you thinking you might die
It's hard to smile when you really wanna sigh
Made it through the tension
Got at niggas I could never mention
Had to find a job with a pension
Focus on the mission
Grinded I was blinded by the vision
Aint no mo hoping and wishing
Now I'm getting old with stories I never told
Crazy how I turned the bullshit into gold
Slept on futons but somehow I never fold
Never passed words I just stuck to the code
Learned from my pops I would watch how he move
Boy you better live like you got something to lose
Don't be actin tough for the likes and the views
Cause if it's you or me it's easy for me to choose
It was 2013 I had everything to prove
Daughter just came and I was fresh outta school
Sitting in my room thinking what is there to lose
Sink or swim you gotta choose
I was down in the dumps
I ain't see Phani in some months
This when Killah use to pack a nigga lunch
Fell out with Duke I loved that nigga a bunch
Never seen em do it but I always had a hunch