(Voice): Ok Mr. Kerri I have diagnosed you with chronic depression
And sever emotional abandonment
This has caused traumatic anger issues
Resulting in violent outbursts
You have responded to this by
Massive amounts of self medication
So tell me how does this make you feel?
(1 Ton):
I think I'm different - People lookin at me funny
Tryin to play me like a dummy just cause I ain't got no money
I think I'm different - I keep on feelin like a waste
It's gettin hard to find my place I need my memories erased
I think I'm different - I'm kinda crazy in the brain
Call me borderline insane but I'm trying to make a change
I think I'm different - I couldn't step into my own
I was lost without a home until I found the microphone
(1 Ton):
I was the boy who switched schools, the new kid on the block,
The fat kid around the corner that no bitches wanna jock
And the snitches wanna sock like I was new to this stuff
Catch me slippin on the block and tryin to prove that they tough
Called me names like slim, made fun of my skin
I swear they laughed and cracked jokes like I was missin a limb
I guess I didn't fit in I guess I'm different than them
My momma hugged while she cried - don't you listen to them
And the times I got beat up but I would fight to the end
Tried to keep my mind open, tried to find me a friend
Was bumpin tougher than leather when I was sad and wanted in
Just when it started gettin better is when we packed and moved again
A set back is a set up for a comeback when it's over
Tried to suck it up instead a cryin on your shoulder
I'd be lyin if I told ya I was fine when I was older,
I'm puffin on the dosia kill smokin like a stoner still
(1 Ton):
I think I'm different - People lookin at me funny
Tryin to play me like a dummy just cause I ain't got no money
I think I'm different - I keep on feelin like a waste
It's gettin hard to find my place I need my memories erased
I think I'm different - I'm kinda crazy in the brain
Call me borderline insane but I'm trying to make a change
I think I'm different - I couldn't step into my own
I was lost without a home until I found the microphone
(Voice): Mr. Leiderman, it seems you are suffering
From social anxiety disorder with social phobias
Which cause you to be overwhelmed in simple situations.
This sickness makes a person such as yourself
Have a very difficult and complicated life I'm very sorry
How does this make your feel?
Yeah, sometimes I look into the mirror I see me and I don't like it
I never thought they'd be a time when I would have to write this
But I'm different on the inside it's hard to explain
And if you see me smilin I'm tryin to cover up the pain
Cause deep down I'm hurtin sick of tryin to fit in, hey
Sick of tryin to be like him man, when I was just a kid
I was down on myself I never thought that I could get through
The smallest kid at my school and I was so far from cool
Just searchin tryin to find the right place for me
No cable tv and no new Jordan's on my feet
No girl by my side I don't wanna be alive
Back then I was so sad but I'm so glad that I survived
Cause struggle makes ya stronger look at me I'm living proof
If I can do it anyone could too I wouldn't lie to you
I was the shyest dude and I used to be so afraid
Now I'm flowin crazy on the stage I came a long way
(1 Ton):
I think I'm different - People lookin at me funny
Tryin to play me like a dummy just cause I ain't got no money
I think I'm different - I keep on feelin like a waste
It's gettin hard to find my place I need my memories erased
I think I'm different - I'm kinda crazy in the brain
Call me borderline insane but I'm trying to make a change
I think I'm different - I couldn't step into my own
I was lost without a home until I found the microphone