I sit and smile as I hear the question With what it's like with what you've been given Take a breath, try not to break A step away, going insane So much you don't understand And you will never comprehend Hunger is the blood rushing through my veins Death seems like liberty, drains my soul I will not let my legs tremble I will not let my fist unclench My eyes gaze keen into the sunlight My patience will not bring a change Satellite friends, backstage passes Promised lies and phony hype Should've watched out what I wished for This is what it's really like [X2] My daughter sleeps alone now My family is destroyed A suicidal alcoholic With an overdose ploy So say all you want now With your judgmental eyes This is what I live with You wouldn't survive