Sometimes
I wake up hoping I will live for
Lifetimes
Other days I just want to
Rewind
Choke myself out in the womb and
Subside
Sleep in an eternal night time
I feel sometimes happy sometimes empty
My god what's the reason that you sent me
My vice is forever chasing virtue
That's nice, tell me love oh do you hurt too
Summertime feels far away
Starry nights and hand grenades
Looks like diamonds in the sky
Fields flicker with fireflies
And before I lay my body down to sleep
I can only pray, pray to you my soul to keep yeah
I'm stuck in this idealistic daydream
I search the dreary sky for a stray sunbeam
I've been going on walks every midnight
Until I see silhouettes in the streetlights
I tried to go to church, connect with people
I sat in my car, stared at the steeple
I heard the choir sing angelic voices
I thought of all my mistakes and bad choices
Summertime feels far away
Starry nights and hand grenades
Looks like diamonds in the sky
Fields flicker with fireflies
And before I lay my body down to sleep
I can only pray, pray to you my soul to keep yeah
I have climbed mountain after mountain
In hopes one day I will find the fountain
Of wealth, mental health, and love and wisdom
The old me is gone, oh do you miss him
Summertime feels far away
Starry nights and hand grenades
Looks like diamonds in the sky
Fields flicker with fireflies
And before I lay my body down to sleep
I can only pray, pray to you my soul to keep yeah