Now and then I get a glimpse of it and I pretend I couldn't live with it, I'm on the mend But I'm gonna tear myself apart again I confess I wanna feel something Inside my chest Instead of this sorrow I've invited in I wanna be happy, see the light again But I never had that I've made it a habit Bad habit of chasing heights I'll never reach But you don't notice me, oh have I made it a habit Emotional damage I've made it a habit Emotional damage I wake up, full of love, with a smile on my face Made that up, call my bluff, it's enough, but it's fake Chasing dreams, but they feel like a nightmare at times I'm a sad one I can't let my happiness shine I coulda been happy, coulda been laughing, yeah, but the fact is I took a path that didn't allow me To be a man that could take a crack, because if I crack then I break, can't when that half of you woudn't have had me as a martyr To deliver the pain that I harbor And it's killin' me off, I wanna get away from it and depart it But I'll never that I've made it a habit A habit of changing heights I'll never reach But you don't notice me, oh have I made it a habit? Emotional damage I made it a habit Emotional damage