His family was away at that time, so he had a lot of... fear that he perhaps damaged his mind by doing this. He lay in bed at one point his consciousness was up on the ceiling looking down at what he took to be his dead body. It's a very small dose, the first dose of my experiments, I planned, was very very strong. He bicycled home and climbed into bed.His family was away at that time, so he had a lot of... fear that he perhaps damaged his mind by doing this. He lay in bed at one point his consciousness was up on the ceiling looking down at what he took to be his dead body.