You see I got the biggest
Hole in my heart cause your home in it is empty
Tell me
Why'd I think I could change it with all this MD
I'm
Done with the envy the outcome is never friendly
I'm trynna learn how to love without teaching you to resent me
Shit
Lately I've been on some soul searchin
Ask the surface of my sole
How my souls hurtin'
If they say that life's a play when'll they roll the curtain
You can never know for certain n that's why I'm sayin
Why don't you treat me like a person
Instead of a purse
Why you keep shouting out them curses
And saying I'm cursed
I wrote this verse while hoping that we converse
But timing is of the essence
I can't afford to reverse
Gotta, work on me first
I'm really dying of thirst
I need to heal and it's deeper than pointing at where it hurts
Hidden beneath the worst
And beyond the reach of my words
And the love left is praying for better hold
I ain't a sucker for all that shit I consider old
I took a leap of faith and I found out the waters cold
My heart is heavy as what the weight of my worth is in gold
So I try and iron out the creases unpack all the folds
Dealing with the shit you tuck at the back of your soul
Dealing with the shit you need if you wanna be whole
Be in control by giving up your idea of having control
And trust in somebody else
Only whom is always the question
Lately I've been reflecting while staring at your reflection
And thinking 'bout all the features I miss about you
I know we haven't really been texting
Or showing love and affection
You told me you'd call me soon
And I didn't doubt you
Although I haven't really been present
I've been a hell of a mess
And a mixture of being busy or sad about you
But I'm still very glad that I met you
I ain't no longer upset you see patience is
Just a virtue I picked around you
Now I'm learning
Times change
Things change
People change too
People change things
Things change
Over time true
Hayibo
No this ain't a verse see this a haiku
I know you don't like it when I have to hide you
But damn I'm choosing faith over pleasure
Cause no matter the weather
Courage is grace under pressure
It's the heart that I treasure
Forgive my hardening measures
And they might seem to come across as
Some childish endeavours
But I would rather hear nothing sweet
Than a sweet nothing
Yet it feels deeper when nothing proves it
Could turn to something
See I assumed that I'd know the route
When I passed the junction
But risk is steep when you base your truth
On ajar assumptions
And putting focus on all your losses
Will leave you broken
The healing process"ll leave you scarred
As a memory token
My teary eyes fill the rivers that guide me
Through the motion
And float me back to an ocean full of joy
Laughter and love with hope and devotion