See lately I've been letting go and letting God
And I be praying that he spare the rod and spoil the child
My mind is wild but I always smile I believe in fate
I was reconciled by the fact that time isn't ever late
The real is fake and the fake is really a mental state
Ain't never been a cattle farmer yet I raise the stakes
Your take on this is deceiving
And I 'on know who to believe in
Some people change with the season
And that's the reason why I burn trees and
Balance my chakras with the henny agua
I been so faded lately dammit I ain't seeing proper
It's hard to stomach that your parents are no longer partners
But that shit hits when you find out you barely knew your father
This life thing is a real pain and a soul hardener
I might just slide to Jamaica and be a ganja farmer
Learn to let go of this hate I use as a body armour
But i ain't judging I just hope they can deal with the karma
I'm just lost in the pain in the same rollercoaster
Only question remains
When is it over
When is it over
It's not temporary, I am certain
But my heart keeps yearning
When it's all over
When it's all over
Don't believe in television they ain't got the answers
They weigh you down there's a reason they call them news anchors
Make you panic and use it like emotional bankers
There's a war between the spirits and their souls are cancers
Lately I've been making movements like a belly dancer
I wouldn't give up even if I ever had the chance to
The game chancellor I can't be put in in a category
And metaphorically speaking see in this story I was
Born of the mud but I've been dreaming I'm from somewhere else
Bored of the world I'm tired of acting like i'm someone else
I keep my head up remember my omi told me that
People'll always come and go like the lights in Nairobi homie
And on the day my time is up I pray my own will hold me
I hope my home is in the stars I pray my soul'll show me
Are there others of my kind? Am I the one and only?
Will I find peace or will I end up in the cold and lonely
I'm not the same as yesterday
I cannot dwell on my mistakes
Oh I still embrace
My humanness, I am deserving
Of brighter days. And honestly
My lowest days, are part of this
Life, I can't explain, but I am worthy
Leave me the fuck alone
Leave my clothes alone
Leave my wholeness
Leave my choices
Leave my home alone
Leave broken past
Fuck iz you focussed on it
Give me a moment, don't need your bogus
'Pinions hold them, homme
This what it feels like to make an honest living
Man, fucking complicated but I'm kinda driven
Tryna make it better also for my children
Fuck how it be looking to onez that got a problem with it
I said it's complicated, and fuck all of this politic'ing
I know that this shit part of it, if I would be anonymous
Sometimes
Kinda feeling all out
Tryna sit 'round a bonfire
And talk my fucking shit until I burn out yeah
I dream about my momma, wish that I could save her
Was this her fucking karma, I don't understand it
She made any house a home, sh' ain't even a problem, though
The good really get it bad, that shit is so unfair yeah
Sometimes I hold back, it's that imposter shit
Feel like I got blood on my hands, resentment fostering
And in my head I'm processing, the shit that I done been through
It was harmful that I locked it in,
I'm glad that I did breath through it
I'm just lost in the pain in the same rollercoaster
Only question remains
When is it over
When is it over
It's not temporary, I am certain
But my heart keeps yearning
When it's all over
When it's all over
I'm not the same as yesterday
I cannot dwell on my mistakes
Oh I still embrace
My humanness, I am deserving
Of brighter days. And honestly
My lowest days, are part of this
Life, I can't explain, but I am worthy