Waiting for retirement is like a destination without a journey
And it's impossible to enjoy what wasn't worked for at least me
But what do I know?
I haven't been alive very long and I missed the point all along
Not to accomplish but to live, to love and to enjoy
'Cause we cannot function without the distraction of survival
So we becomes self-centered and goal-oriented
Regimented lies become bias
Regenerated lessons to not realize sometimes boredom is a privilege
It means you'll put your guard down but it makes it easy to lose yourself
And if it's that easy to lose who you are, you might not be anyone at all
So allow yourself to feel love
Hope, enjoy, exist, fail an attempt because you you're worth that, I promise
And wallowing in what is not will not change what is
And I don't need depression but I can live with it
But let me have my sadness, it's part of a bigger picture
Let me have my joy, my confusion, my compassion
'Cause I'd rather feel complete than feel accomplished
'Cause I wanna feel like I'm living in the moment
So don't let the record of what you do
Be more important than what you do
Disconnect from the false narrative
The digital journeys filled with blind spots
And ask yourself, "What do you desire?"
If it's control maybe you've missed the point so let it be life
As much as possible, let yourself be loved
And then you can learn how to love others
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I wanna open up about my failures
But I'm afraid of leaving any blood in the water
And love my leak back to removing myself from a gracious circle of friends
I wanna call my friends more often but I don't wanna feel like I'm a bother
And I wanna stop changing the course of my heart every time it feels like I've hit a dead end
I reconnected with my faith in God
When my convictions cut too close to the bone
And I've learnt to let the narrative play out
If you want to avoid the blowback
And don't believe in your own hype just because it helps you not feel so alone
I felt the words that were illogical but popular
Moments that were fabricated but offered more
And I left a lot of phone calls empty
'Cause I couldn't pick up that phone
I want my life to be the worship that I thought it was before I began
I wanna live a gospel that I believe in
But not one that was written by my own hands
I want the narrative of truth
To be more important than the narrative of success
But I've fallen so far, I don't know if I can find myself again
See, I disagree
I think a lot of that feels very fake and just disingenuous
In what way?
It doesn't, it just doesn't
It is like a disconnect for me, it just doesn't feel like
He believes in all that he has been saying
And not like uh, like totally the delivery is off
It just feels like, you know
You were just reading that for the sake of writing it
It just doesn't feel very
You feel a little bit more like you were being preached to?
Yeah, then maybe
I'm actually gonna have to disagree with you
Okay
I think, over the course of his career and with his last few albums
Like he actually