I'm just trying to find A reason to care I once believed in a god till i cried out to him And nobody was there A burden on my brain That isnt going away And now i'm looking for reasons That i shouldn't need this But i can't turn away I know i said the last time That i wouldn't relapse But now i'm standing On my deathbed And i don't want to stay When i've always been this way I know i said the last time That i wouldn't go back But now it's been 3 nights At the hotel we met at And you're not here with me But the memory remains And as i took the last line (And as i took the last line) I was approaching the light (I was approaching the light) I felt your presence again With you're head next to mine What a beautiful sight (What a beautiful sight) I made up my mind I'm friending i'm fried I don't need your love I just need these drugs Ive got no reason to hide Tell momma i'm fine It'll be ok down the line But i'm tired of trying I know i said the last time That i wouldn't relapse But now i'm standing On my deathbed And i don't want to stay When i've always been this way I know i said the last time That i wouldn't go back But now it's been 3 nights At the hotel we met at And you're not here with me But the memory remains