I've been alone for to long Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent I need to be patient but want to take action I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons Know that I'm impatient but I feel like I deserve it All these b*tches want my attention but without purpose Getting older everyday I see couples I'm getting nervous When will that be me cause lowkey I am feeling worthless Is it even meant for me cause I don't see it happening Keep on drinking bottles and bottles filled up with medicine Every time a lady talks to me I feel adrenaline Hoping that she'll be the one Don't know what is going on Everybody seems to fall in love Looking all around I see empty cups I am throwing up yeah I am throwing up There are tears in my face and in my red cup I've been alone for to long Really f*cking with my mental you can hear it in my songs Maybe I'm way to picky and doing it all wrong On my own till I'm 50 so I gotta stay strong I can not look for attachment cause love will be absent I need to be patient but want to take action I look for that sh*t day and night I'm so restless Is God playing games or is he teaching lessons