I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside
And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide
So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine
And I'll make the choice to find the light
Uh, yeah
And I don't know when this will end, yeah
And I don't know how I'll descend, uh
But I know that I ain't going back to that old rap
So I know classics back then just ain't my friend
But the faith ain't here, and the rest is clear
Yeah I'm restless near
But alone I'm drenched in fear to be the best this year
Man I miss my peers
I'm lost inside my dreams but please just come back
I wanna go back to the past like I never started rap
Passions that I thought I lacked made a difference
Now I'm selling tracks
Listen I want a new me, I wanna send all my apologies
Last year I had a friend base, now intimidated to talk to me
Friend-base now a fan-base, was it worth it
Not a little bit
Probably just all my ego battled me till I'm losing it
Moving into new homes, so kudos but I'm new to this
I wanna quit but I'll never give in, music is my only sin
I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside
And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide
So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine
And I'll make the choice to find the light
I don't wanna play the victim but I'm contemplating my life
Yeah my family ain't there for me cause money's what we bribe
So I'm forced to play the bad guy hoping that I'm on your side
But if I ain't sending money to the bank I ain't worth the love inside
Look at me inside my eye and tell me
That you love me more than money ever buys
Put it up inside a letter hoping that I better open up, I'm dead inside
I don't wanna be another man who
Never made the family look at in pride
But if I had it my I would never make a living off of music
And I tried to be the bigger man
Yes I can't afford to send my cash
But notice that I am the realist brother, son and friend
And I wish nothing but the best, I love you all until the end
But I can't handle being nothing but another band
I won't ever save your debt
I'm nothing but a crutch, a savior
Wanna be the one that's there and never giving up, it's fair
I've wanted all the love, I'm here
And now I see it's clear
I'm chasing pain and now I don't know if I wanna be that famous
I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside
And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide
So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine
And I'll make the choice to find the light
I just wanna relax but I can't with this feeling inside
And I can't, I can't, I can't be the one to decide
So I put on my face, and then I'll tell you I'm fine
And I'll make the choice to find the light