Convulsive currents going up to my brain
Impulsive urges I cannot seem to train
Static crackled through the dull interference
I would spend so long just to make no appearance
I'd ingested a sedative readily knocked out
Skipping round by the medicine heavily locked down
Dose to dose so I'm thinking lethal
They don't fuck with me cause I don't fuck with people
Bugs inside of my body rotten
Not a single warning ever stopped me popping
Any dose of an undisclosed substance still
Been close to the edge but reluctance kills
Writing for myself my original reason
I ain't a crowd pleaser no I'm doing little appeasing
Heart's giving out doing minimal beating
And I'm blind braindead no occipital region
Lips are sealed to tell no lies
I'll find you there under blackened skies
If I lived in doubt then would I be allowed in
Not one to believe this the words that it preaches
Open my eyelids
Whole life misguided
Draw them in and push em back
I see I leave em frightened
Maybe within time
Gather your insight
I was just misunderstood
To end it all I'm inclined
Everybody wanna act like they're so involved
Cause even though by then when the tie's dissolved
Well that don't matter to a selfish narcissist
And they will keep on showing till they are dismissed
Bother me more in my area code
They wanna ask overstep feel I'm barely alone
Getting cross faded so the hurt is collateral
I don't see a purpose living I am one incompatible
Member of the public eye what the fuck do you see
Is so attractive about associating with me
I may be biased I don't find myself open or likable
I've been dwelling on the traits that you'd find undesirable
Near to the end so I'm cutting corners
6 more decades craving something shorter
Even if we make it and we're stacking millions
There will be no other change I'll be atrabilious
Lips are sealed to tell no lies
I'll find you there under blackened skies
If I lived in doubt then would I be allowed in
Not one to believe this the words that it preaches
Open my eyelids
Whole life misguided
Draw them in and push em back
I see I leave em frightened
Maybe within time
Gather your insight
I was just misunderstood
To end it all I'm inclined