I know I've got this price to pay
But sometimes I'd rather die
Photographs and remnants of the time that you were mine
I contemplate the distance and the endless things we tried
To reconcile our differences and put that shit aside
But maybe one day this will be better in the end
The pain is only temporary it won't seep in
And baby I'm so sorry for the thousand times I lied
'Cause hurting you is something that I never had in mind
Take a Xanax for habits you ain't had yet
All these thoughts you been laying on my mattress
Preoccupied by the notion of you leaving
When I wake up, I know that you ain't sleeping
Cold sweats at night, I can't help but fight
Forever and always, you can't fucking lie
Hopes in my eyes, that you have denied
You gave up on always and left me to die
I'm falling hard 'cause I've been holding on to cracks
I'm finding pieces I never thought I'd get back
When you're not here with with me it's not that I am sad
Just know that things would be better with you around
But I'll be just fine
Pretending that I'm not alright
'Cause something bout the pain feels nice
Anything to take my mind off that night
Take a Xanax for habits you ain't had yet
All these thoughts you been laying on my mattress
Preoccupied by the notion of you leaving
When I wake up, I know that you ain't sleeping
Cold sweats at night, I can't help but fight
Forever and always, you can't fucking lie
Hopes in my eyes, that you have denied
You gave up on always and left me to die
You got some bad news today
It kills me that I'm the one who had to make you feel this way
You always said I'd never change