I watched those sparkles darken I've seen control disperse I thought you knew the secrets; that you controlled the Earth When we was young you told me You'd hold my hand and jump I didn't know you'd let me fall when your shit cramping up I'm sinking through the ink I feel it closing in You tried to nurse my wound when you had broke the skin A trait as old as sin, it's hands through the garbage I watched you lie to me while we danced through the carnage Pull me close, the stars darting: big things are even bigger now I thought that I could fly away. You sat and watched me hit the ground It's all different now: the pace has got me pacing I guess that's what I get for fucking chasing what I'm chasing What's it mean? Used to wonder how to cope Ponder how to float How do I adult? Climb inside the boat Why do I emote? My kaleidoscope's stuck inside the blues Can't deny my role, others thrive, I don't I feel tired, yo I need Tylenol, look, I'm not likable I'm unreliable, that's undeniable, nope Turns out, once the curtains down The Tooth Fairy's dead, and their words cast doubt Childish bricks in a dirt glass house Ashen wings that can't surpass clouds turn back now The illusion isn't worth it They will fail to reach the sky, give up then claim to choose the surface For some the ego wears the crown but there is no descendent So once the guillotine goes down what's left is but resentment I'd rather be what I'm about and choose not to defend it Don't strive to please nobody now so, I don't need pretending What it be? What it don't? I can see, through the fog What it be? What it don't? I can see, through the fog What'd you do? I don't know But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor let's fucking go Say, what'd you do? I don't know But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor like where'd you go? Say, what'd you do? I don't know But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor let's fucking go Say, what'd you do? I don't know But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor like where'd you go?