Crazy what can change in year I'm Back on my shit
Took a few months off now it's rumors that a nigga quit
I been lost inside my conscience but you don't get it
Everything been seeming like dream since I lost my nigga
Granny asking me if okay don't know how she do it
She just lost the love of the life I'm complaining bout some music
Feel like it's a hex on my family but we getting through it
Moving thru the motions until everything become congruent
Been tryna cope but I can't cap I feel like ima lose it
I tell my baby everyday I don't feel like myself
It's been hard for me to focus on what's real and proven
I can't see em coming down my eyes
So I gotta make this song for emotions inside
Been bottled up for years some topics I don't speak on life
But we all the dark eventually comes to light
So I question what is real
What is life after death
Will I live past 66
All the tears that I wept
Lost myself Out of touch with reality itself
Memories so black white
Disconnected I ain't felt shit in while
Try and smile
But all these tears keep falling like autumn leaves
Can't catch em I fall asleep
Just wishing it's all a dream
Look me eyes you and see the pain through all of me
With all these tears shed I could fill the world partially
And still have more fall
I'd do anything to hear voice 1 more call
I'm fucked up
Hex told come spend some more time I fucked up
Too scared to see you sick now I can't see you at all
You wouldn't wanna see me down but know these feeling is hard
I swear to god, I swear to god
All these thoughts is from yo first grandson
Sincerely yours