Aye I'm just socially anxious
And hella easy to anger
I drift away wit no anchor
My face get blanker
Hey banker, go head play God for a second
Give me a dollar for every penny
My parents have spent just trying to get me to college
Cuz I acknowledge their dreams
But we don't share them
They live vicariously
But they weren't there growing up
Always working to feed me, I'm knees deep
Guilty that they don't know me
Filthy the way I came up
Lying, talking to strangers
And searching for validation
Cuz I ain't learn how to ask for a hug
My saving grace was my grades
Well look where that shit got me
Make money off my music
Couldn't ask for a hobby that's more fulfilling
But my peers jus do it better more
Lessons I ain't get, I'm poor
Worried bout my catalogue, don't care about no credit score
They tell me that "you're your only competition"
So then my composition consists of my opposition
Fuck the other side
And fuck my stupid face
And fuck my love addiction
Walking contradiction, you don't get me?
I don't either, bitch
Need a bitch, maybe bruh
No I need to fix myself
Value you over my health
And that's the way it's been since twelve
I'm bout to turn 19 soon, man that's irritating
I should be happy, I ain't really think I'd fucking make it
But to be honest, getting older, kind of fucking hate it
Closer to my breaking point, just trynna leave my information
Nigga, it's your birthday
As long as you don't sing to me
I'll live if you gonna celebrate it
But it's more for you than me
Really, it just takes me back to wrist slits and losing sleep
Music keep me tethered, but lately I just get confused
My shit was better with acid and shrooms
Just generally plastered
Instead I'm sober hungover and frozen cold to my core
Just hoping that'll someone'll notice
The way I'm fraudulent, bogus
And from my eyes, know I'm soulless
Continue stepping regardless cuz I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
Yeah, and I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
And I just keep moving forward
Make my wish come true, let darkness slip aside
Hiding all our hope, mocking what we treasure
Battles we can win, if we believe our souls
Hang in for the light 'till dawn