Arms behind back, barely conscious. i promised i wouldn't pull my eyes away, But they are swelling shut. a hopeless gaze covers my face. i'd rather die than let you suffer. I can't move my arms to tear these monsters off. thrashing you about and pounding you down. This is my fear, never so real. nothing is more sobering than the taste of blood. Knife to throat. they penetrate you. the only thing in this life that i hold sacred. i cannot get them off. I surrender. i have failed you. your cries of pain almost unhuman. The only thing that keeps me from slipping away. bleed me a river, and then drown me in it. Just one more, one last time. one more good night. and then end it. Bleed me a river, and then drown me in it.