I've waited on tables
For men who change lives
♪
And I know all their names
But they
Just forget mine
And I've sang for them before
And they'll open up their door
If I'm more like this,
Like a Taylor Swift,
With a throwback twist
It'd be perfect
But you need a hit
And God
I hated it
And I searched for what they were looking for
Until I was just
Looking for myself
So finally
I'm gonna be
Good to me
Oh God!
Why's it so hard
To just say these
These words out loud
♪
Cuz honestly
I just turned 33
And I've loved enough,
Lost enough,
I've lifted
And let myself down

And I'm not who they'd thought I'd be
And that's good to me
♪
I've looked in the mirror
A thousand times
♪
I've held on to my skin
And I dreamed
What it'd be like
And I look for validation,
Oh, in the darkest of nights
With the wine I get
And the lipstick red
On my cigarette
And the warmth of a stranger
Who's got a light
And I know it's because I told myself
That I don't deserve
A better life
So finally
I'm gonna be
Good to me
Oh God!
Why's it so hard to just say these
These words out loud

Cuz honestly
I just turned 33
And I've loved enough,
Lost enough,
And I've lifted
And I've let myself down

And I'm not who I thought I'd be
Yeah life's still a mystery
♪
And that's good to me