I'm afraid I'll always be like this
Unable to grow
Constant regression
It's inevitable
You were the begging that fed me
I am the failure that feeds you
But the biggest mistake I could make
Was trusting the shithead that is me
Choke me, choke me
Engorge my organ
Sex and death, sex and death
What's the difference?
Bellow, bellow, bellow
Swallow, swallow, swallow
Get loud, get loud
Make your father proud
I will lead you
Where you don't wanna go
Bloated and bursting with bile
Castration of my phallic rage
Denial breeds beauty
Denial breeds beauty
Denial breeds beauty
Denial bleeds me dry
I'm afraid I'll always be like this
Unable to grow and constantly regressing
Numbing myself, I can feel it (I can feel it)
Inhibition letting go, only to wake up feeling alone
This was inevitable (this was inevitable)
I'm sorry I let you down
But I'll be your martyr (but I'll be your martyr)
I'm sorry I let you down
I'm sorry I let you down
I am a dream of the endless
Self aware in a perpetual cycle that I cannot escape
A fool who prays for that which he is most afraid
Giving my all, only to be told he is never good enough
Give me the strength to pull the trigger
Show me there is a light at the end, regardless of what awaits
A void of emotion or the vast nothingness
I know you will not be there (I'm sorry I let you down)
And I know it will be beautiful
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
Merciless emptiness
I hope I make you embarrassed
I hope you're afraid
I know you'll keep me a secret
I hope you're ashamed
I hope I make you embarrassed
I hope you're afraid
I know you'll keep me a secret
I hope you're ashamed