And now we've come to the crux The apex and the even horizon But I have not some epic thesis This more a rambling monologue The an illuminating treatise What is there to cull or gather From this deranged utterance? I want to say "since we are here, Might as well enjoy the ride." But find this trite and heartless For many fail and end their lives Still I cannot escape this fact Survival and conatus reign After all is said at days end Mother nature, even i, Go ever forth like it or not. Understand it or not Inertia is a mighty force Perhaps our bane is asking why And this is solely human Disaffected in knowing how We always beg the question To what avail? to what avail? Lower life has not this plague That blessed curse unique to us But ought we to suppress it Shouldn't we instead engage? It is with grief that I report My still and ever present void I do not know why I am alive The urgency of my tortured soul Does not necessitate an answer But reason and humility Encourage me to linger So on I go, forever striving To make sense of my environment, And even enjoy it