I got a lot of free time on my hands and so I started cleaning out Going through boxes filled with faded memories A thousand messages I wrote, they all reflect the insecurity that came from disrespect And everything that might have been Just to learn, for argument's sake, I questioned motives Asked for more reasons why moving in their direction would be safe I took advice that seemed to make sense Ignored the path I could not see Slowly wrote the manual I live by today I could have listened, be like them and go with the tide But somewhere deep inside it would feel wrong I've had the best of times, I have been thrown aside As sure as I could ever be I will never be just anyone Through darker days I've learned some things the hardest way But I've seen good hearts at times when I felt down Marked by the past I'll keep on going against the grain As sure as I could ever be I will never be just anyone