It's too familiar the way evening cramps the space inside my head
Left boiling over sleeping next to things I should have said
Because you can lend perspective but we both know that it cannot be gifted
So cross your fingers that the things you want and things you needed
Are the same now
I'll keep adjusting proximities in an attempt to relate
To these misadventures that have me hating everything
You should stop saying you miss me 'cause I struggle to authenticate
The curves on your canvas as symmetry or wasted space
It feels the same as...
But there's something so loud about this quiet south side apartment
Because I've yet to give the walls something to talk about
So as of right now I'm acknowledging apprehension
As a natural mechanism of my fickle mind
But it's too peculiar the way it finds me almost every time
Sitting in the sunlight
Even when I've locked the doors and drawn the blinds
Because I've been trying to grow out of you
But what once bloomed died and made the soil
A hostile foreign body policy
And ugly feelings towards these pretty things
Have left me alone now
I'll keep adjusting proximities in an attempt to relate
To these misadventures that have me hating everything
You should stop saying you miss me 'cause I struggle to authenticate
The curves on your canvas as symmetry or wasted space
It feels the same as the silence
But there's something so loud about the way you let me down
'Cause I don't think this will be something we'll laugh about
So as of right now, I guess that I am just deciding
That this will be the beginning of my fearless life
But I miss you all the time
Go alone, you know that you have to