Lip biting
Nails bleeding
Messy room
And messy mind
And every so often
I'm trapped inside
Alone with company
Still the life of the party
But don't got life in my body
Can't shake this feeling
So I'm in the habit
Of finding distractions
Ah, fuck
I haven't moved on
As much
As I thought
But it
Can't be that bad right
Until I'm alone at night
And it's too quiet
I'm too used to riots
I can't explain why I feel this way
But I'm not okay
So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out
Gonna yell club songs way too loud
You find a way to co-exist with life
When you're walking the borderline
Between laughing and crying
Thriving and just surviving
Oh I've been
Searching for catharsis all my life
Maybe I'll find it this time
Eyes heavy
Head hurting
Sorry I can't explain
Words are inadequate
When you're lost in your brain
I try to find any way to
Just make it go away
But I got a lump in my throat and
I feel like nobody knows
So I'm in the habit
Of finding distractions
Ah, fuck
I haven't moved on
As much
As I thought
But it
Can't be that bad right
Until I'm alone at night
And it's too quiet
I'm too used to riots
I can't explain why I feel this way
But I'm not okay
So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out
Gonna yell club songs way too loud
You find a way to co-exist with life
When you're walking the borderline
Between laughing and crying
Thriving and just surviving
Oh I've been
Searching for catharsis all my life
Maybe I'll find it this time
Just get me get me out
I've tried everything and it don't help
Nothing hurts more than nothing
Just get me get me out
I've tried everything and it don't help
Nothing hurts more than nothing
So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out
Gonna yell club songs way too loud
You find a way to co-exist with life
When you're walking the borderline
Between laughing and crying
Thriving and just surviving
Oh I've been
Searching for catharsis all my life
Maybe I'll find it this time
So if I wanna scream I'm gonna go out
Gonna yell club songs way too loud
You find a way to co-exist with life
When you're walking the borderline
Between laughing and crying
Thriving and just surviving
Oh I've been
Searching for catharsis all my life
Maybe I'll find it this time