Its been awhile since I took out some time to reflect
Cuz I always end up thinking bout some shit I regret
Been trying to heal but its hard to forgive and forget
All them nights I never slept trying to manage this stress
Its some people that I love that I no longer respect
That did shit behind my back that I could never except
Picture ya friend on the net trying to ruin ya rep
And after it didn't work say they wish you the best
Watched my lil cuz drag my name through the mud
Now I'm up and he telling everybody we blood
Its fucked up how money change the people you love
And you cant trust anybody in the city I'm from
All this pain got me numb like I'm off of the drugs
Holding a grudge against the ones wit my name on they tongue
But I shoulda peeped the signs and realized what it was
Swallowed L's just to let them haters feel like they won
Chose to be the bigger man when I could of been petty
Put it all in Gods hands when shit could of got messy
But I'm a king and this crown was supposed to be heavy
All that fake shit getting cancelled like Malcom and Eddie
When I fell back niggaz thought I fell off
Wasn't nobody I could call with my back against the wall
You ain't did what I did you ain't seen what I saw
Don't tell me you a boss if you ain't never took a loss
When I fell back niggaz thought I fell off
Wasn't nobody I could call with my back against the wall
You ain't did what I did you ain't seen what I saw
Don't tell me you a boss if you ain't never took a loss