Happy new year happy new year (yeah)
Open up champagne hanging with my fears (yeah)
Time is going by so fast I wanna slow down
I'll bury my memories under the snow today so I can fall out
I wish it could be this way
Like you wish someone happiness and shit goes away
Like I lose a friend every fucking year
Tell me any reason why I'll be okay
I don't wanna go any further but'
Got a burden on skinny shoulders, I'm
Lowkey making some honest music that's
Why I'm still feeling not so useless
New year, same pain
Resolution on the low now
New fears, in my brain
Shivering bones in the snow now
I'm still, fucked up
I been tryna run from my demons
New thrill, tough luck
I don't wanna breathe and i mean it
Staying inside
So many plans, that I don't abide to
Playing a lie
I'll keep making the music that I wanna cry to
Dropping the ball
On all the responsibilities unfinished
Ruin it all
Counting down seconds like days that I witness
Forget an acquaintance, I'm losing my patience, need inspiration
It's more of the same shit, depression that lingers without explanation
I'm trapped in my bed now, panic attacking inside of my head now
In come the dread now, playing back every word that I said how
Fuck all the noise, fuck all the smiles and fuck all the joy
All of this hatred inside of a void gonna keep me regretting the life I destroy
I just wanna hide, close up my eyes, run from the fear that I'm holding inside
Say I wanna die, but its a lie, I got no choice but to battle this year and survive