Now it's all good until it's all bad Innocence is lost I hope god loves me like you say so And all them castles in the sand I know one day they'll all be washed I hope god loves me but I don't think he does I try to be good I try to be kind but I'm jaded The only time I love myself is back when I was faded I'm fatally flawed I wanna be wanted How can I make you love me Is it with sex or with money God giveth, god taketh God willing, god dammit God probably don't know me If he did he couldn't stand me Born sinner Born ugly Born in a torn family Nose bloody Knuckles bloody Soul dirty So damaged I'ma touch that stove top just to see if it's still hot God don't watch Ima self sabotage my whole life for a couple of gold stars Tell me I'm good enough Tell me I'm worthy of love from the holiest Tell me my sins are forgiven while I still repeat them How many mother Mary's till I break even How many dark days till I repent Holy water in a spoon and syringe Uppers downers in a cycle of shit Take me away like my father and friends If God exists will he love me for me Because nobody does and nobody did I am who I am a product of pain I'm natural sin Now it's all good until it's all bad Innocence is lost I hope god loves me like you say so And all them castles in the sand I know one day they'll all be washed I hope god loves me but I don't think he does