When I feel sad and alone I'll try Not to breathe quick and cry Sitting in light But not outside I feel my stomach knot inside It's just a fucked up state of mind It doesn't matter regardless Why do I Go straight to panic mode When everything is in control My, my understanding is flawless But my dictation is tearing me apart I guess I'm broken from the start When I was only just a boy I fell in love But it was much too soon for us to wake up And smell the roses blooming in your heart But not enough space for me to flourish there eventually I went to therapy for months, and I Still touch my face when my hands shake I try to keep it all inside but I Never learn from my mistakes and feel remiss in all of my actions