I just wanted to be the face of neutrality I never wanted to leave. Sinking in, striking out Shifty tongue, broken ideas The machine inside me Spits out numbers violently, Vomits expletives unnecessarily. It won't let me be. I want to see the birds and the bees Won't always be permanent. To everybody that i love today: I want to feel ashamed. I can see the birds and the bees Will always be permanent And if the world teams up on me, i guess. I only want you around when you're not around. But now you're gone, Brushing your teeth with a cigarette. I only want you around when you're not around. But now you're gone, Choking on a cigarette. I can see the birds and the bees. I want to feel affirmative. I believe in what you believe-- I'm pouring under, Spilling under, I'm down on my knees.