I close my eyes to no avail three days of aching sleepless I wish these sheets would suffocate me while I wait I love the cuts that make the lines Arranged in beautiful designs My fight with a sharp side of a razor blade The sting at the back of my throat The sweet release of self-intervention I'm back from below and on this way One last time to get free When there's evil in me I want to be alone (I want to be alone) 'Cause I'm not coming home ('Cause I'm not coming home) I'll lose myself tonight Use my new lie alibi Against the enemy inside of me It's getting harder to inhale, quick fix to clear my secrets Eyes dilate and stop the winding second hand It turns the hours into days Behind the sunset my life fades to gray Alone again with a razor blade And how did it get like this? I haven't fucked up in so long I lost my innocent bliss, where did I go wrong? One last time to get free When there's evil in me I want to be alone (I want to be alone) 'Cause I'm not coming home ('Cause I'm not coming home) I'll lose myself tonight Use my new lie alibi Against the enemy It's quiet now Like the moments after a murder The younger me inside Can't believe the things he saw tonight Face to face I'm screaming at myself For help (I'm through, fuck you) One last time to get free When there's evil in me I want to be alone 'Cause I'm not coming home I'll lose myself tonight Use my new lie alibi Against the enemy