The space his leaving creates I have tried to fill with bodies that numbed my skin In them I had expected to find his opposites I found only forgeries He's away and I cannot breathe him in When I think of his sparkling face And of his body that rocked me this way and that When I think of his laughter, his jubilance that filled me It's a wonder I'm not gone mad He's away and I cannot breathe him in He is a fiction I've made, yet I cannot stop longing for him Craving sensation new flesh cannot wholly calm Perhaps it's for more than him He's away and I cannot breathe him in