I don't really feel so merry
The lights are up, the room feels dark
Your perfume never left your scarf
I didn't know it'd feel so heavy
The emptiness inside my arms
But wintertime was always ours
Now your boots are by the door
They're covered in dust instead of snow
And it's hard to find my place
When I'm already home
But it don't feel like home
They say that firsts are the very hardest
Well I think they lied if I'm being honest
The pain just gets worse with each passing night and ooo
I put up the tree cus that's what you wanted
I drink whiskey neat and I hang up garland
But everything's wrong cus I'm brokenhearted ooo
And I know I said I'd be strong
But I hate Christmas now that you're gone
I don't wanna open presents
There's nothing for me in this box
Oh nobody's got what I want
Please turn off the Christmas playlist
Forget about the Christmas town
There's nothing for me on the ground
Hung your coat behind the door
So you'd be prepared in case it snows
Guess you don't need it anymore
Cus you're not coming home
No you're not coming home
They say that firsts are the very hardest
Well I think they lied if I'm being honest
The pain just gets worse with each passing night and ooo
I put up the tree cus that's what you wanted
I drink whiskey neat and I hang up garland
But everything's wrong cus I'm brokenhearted ooo
And I know I said I'd be strong
But I hate Christmas now that you're gone