Grieving for what's not yet gone Crippled by the fear of loss Clouds form, the wind of change Or just another draught? Living as if all of time will wait for me As if I am all that will exist No dread No fear No agency Will we remember the lesson Paradoxical lucidity Will we realise only too late That this is all we have As you walk out the door Into a blinding grey You'll take a part of me Just as I will carry you Both of us, never to be known again Innocence's tight embrace relaxes As I wave goodbye to youth In slow motion Against my will I'm forced to wave goodbye to you It's all gone and it's not coming back I can't afford to kill time when time is killing me Slow it all down and take a look around The door opens Take a second glance You'll never get a second chance Do you see me as you once did? I'm wading through this hurt The world is flying by and fading faster still A conduit fading but with so much still to give and take It's later than you think It's later than you think Fallen out of touch with life I let it get away from me Before I count to one Don't take it all away from me To live in the moment Still seems a dream All I can change is me All I can do is love Tapping on the glass Knocking on the front door Trying to find a present moment Are you going to go home Or will you sit yourself down Hoping on the off chance A light will come on When the sun shines behind the clouds I see it clearer than I ever could before I feel its warmth gently touch my face And while I'm sitting here with you I know it's not the end of the world