Within the halls of the monastery I walk the corridors in silence A vow of abstinence and piety I made To attain peace and holy guidance All earthly pleasures I've forsworn But when I'm desperate and forlorn I take the crucifix down from my chamber wall Longing to feel the Lord inside of me The tempting body of christ puts me at a loss My gut it hurts whenever I am Alone with the cross His wooden symbol bringing warmth and light To where the sun is never shining Makes me tremble with unholy ecstasy Oh God, thy mercy I confide in For this I can never atone Heavenly father please condone I take the crucifix down from my chamber wall Longing to feel the Lord inside of me The tempting body of christ puts me at a loss My gut it hurts whenever I am Alone with the cross Defiled and broken, His image in my hands Damned is my godforsaken soul My oath no longer worth a toss I weep in shame and bitter loss Alone with my cross