This is my defining moment, see everything I've ever wrote
Is only a small fraction of what I've lived to see up on the roads
When I was rolling with my Os and?
You joking I ain't talking open on this track when I've got investigations open
Got some real brothers in my team and some real ones too
Real ones holding a (shh), real ones holding a few
Because you know, a real youth will never try and snake you
Unless you weren't real to him, then he might flip pot on you
But forget working hand to hand, I'm 27 fam
If I don't know where your mum lives me and you ain't making plans
Flashbacks to hot-boxing in a battered van
Always had the marylands and tools on me they called me handyman
I'm the fucking candyman just say my name and I'm there
At your door, with a fat draw, a 3.2 Ford Escort
In '06 I pushed a 2.8, and a 3.2
Rolling dirty with no license, give a fuck what the police do
The ends made me celebrate, going days without sex
Grinding so hard so that one day I can leave these projects
See most of the olders are no where left in the ends with no friends
I build a fucking empire got a house and a Benz
Forget a 100 man crew, I'd rather have a dog and a skeng
And a couple real mandem that'd ride with me till the end
You violated? Say nothing, let me see enourmous? see them again, seeing believing who'd believe that he's dead
- X2
Before every great change, comes a little pain
So while I'm struggling now I keep on loving (?)
He's gonna guide me along the way
And help me rise for another day
Remember back then, we never cared to talk about this life
We never had no vision, and we just stook around the hype
Just making bad decisions, with other clicks having mad collisions
And street robbing and shotting got half the mans in prisons
I lost contact with many a men in the pen
Because they hid the road and when they come back and again and again
But thats the way the system wants so many can't see it
Aydoe Soul on the road and they don't know what they thought they could afford to wear
Or could afford to wear, I'm on the air I finally got the chance to make my plans fall into fruition
Abort the superstition because I'm shining look, when I'm rising up the roots of wisdom
I need to find a balance, I'm trying to live lavish in a palace
But I got some bad habits that I need to manage
I'm a star 9 member, Luton forever living here
Because I'm not chilling at the bottom of this pyramid
- X2
My head is gone, my head is not a good head
Wishing someone mutted my life so I can start it all again
I done, so much sinning how the hell can I repent
If karma's true, god'll probably want to see me catch leng
I still got a couple enemies still gotta catch them
Or should I be the bigger man and let their guilt rot their soul?
What if they don't follow god I gotta teach them on my own
But them I'm back to square one, when'll man learn to let it go, beef
Real paranoid when man is gunning for your life
Being scared ain't an option so you prepare yourself to die
Are you on that 5 star hotel sipping on cognac?
Contactless combat contract getting a cong back
From playing football with a tennis ball
To playing football on a tennis court
I remember my friend used to sell draw
I used to dream of 5 bills now every other day I splash them
Monkey frankton from bricky playing my shotguns in the country
Cooking friends are on the barbecue spitting a bar or two
My people own a bar or two a couple barbours too
Certain man are getting bars for two
I can't stop bars to you
But I can die with you for a drink four queens faces in pink
This life is not what you think
All of this materialistic bullshit won't mean a thing, when your mum is singing hymns
When you're on your death bed wishing you never would have sinned
Living a live of hate that leaves you feeling soulless within