Lost my mind, lost it twice Should've known better than to take advice On my private life, all the time Nothing else, hold me back Hold me up, stupid rhyme Take me down, fuck me up Ridin' round and round, round and round and round Round and round in your Tonka truck Run me over, flatten all my arteries And lay them out to dry (Call my mom, someone help! 91) Fuck what you felt Go to work, do your shit Fill your cup, flip your lid Trust your thoughts, love yourself Everyone hurts, talking helps No it doesn't! Fuck your shit Fuck me up, live like this Fuck you up, live like this Fuck you too, live like shit Take a pic and post it on the 'gram And tell them I don't live like Buy it, use it, break it, fix it Now I gotta live with all this Spending money and I'm getting sad Just like I said I would Buy it, use it, break it, fix it Don't do things I said I would Losing money, losing friends Didn't break but couldn't bend Trying not to play pretend But make a million off pretend I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get I wish somebody told me How hard this was gonna get A million people told me But I don't believe them yet I'm too expensive I buy all my clothes at Neiman Marcus I'm too pretentious Out of all my demons I'm the hardest I find my demons And I beat them up 'cause it's cathartic I'm talking bullshit I'm playing pretend 'cause it's cathartic I wish I knew me before all of this shit Now what's the deal Close my eyes and start believing I'm rich? Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up And I can leave Hannigan's Start my own home, big TV For all of my friends, all of my friends Come on over we can do it again I'll be assertive nip the bud Before it plays with my head All in my head, wish I wasn't always All in my head, say it again Wish I wasn't always all in my head All in my head All in my head