Listen
They ask me why
Why I smile when I cry
Cause I'm just tryna hide what's inside of my mind
Yeah I'm fine
(Tears fall from my eyes)
Who would've thought that they could make it this hard
Who would've thought that I could make it this far flashing fake smiles
(Cause I smile when I cry)
Flashing fake smiles
Uh
Ok I woke up on that early morning, rubbed my eyes, and yawned
Reached towards the sky, I touched the clouds with outstretched arms
Sip a cup of coffee while my neighbors cut they lawns
Moved in silence while they wondered what I might be on
See, I'm just on a higher plane of living by myself
Building by myself
I'mma get it by myself
Why
Cause at this young age, all I wanted was to go viral and hit front page
Now I'm afraid cause police never kill the well-paid
But hit us with a 12 gauge
A skeleton's your cellmate
Keep falling until you feel yourself fade
Into a world where weaponry is self made
By people thrown into a cell before the 12th grade
To fight the villain who'll just smirk and say well played
We fell victim to a system that was hell raised
Wishing this was different but we're shifting at a snails pace
Because of mace from executive branch
We yelling free him till it's backwards with no weapon in hand
Yet they advance and kill whoever's left to withstand
The deadliest, treacherous land of state prison
I hate how this fake system of racism will kill you and I
Spitting truth beyond our youth, they want us euthanized
And then they'll rule it as a suicide
Now you at my funeral in suits and ties and you will cry
They ask me why
Why I smile when I cry
Cause I'm just tryna hide what's inside of my mind
Yeah I'm fine
Who would've thought that they could make it this hard
Who would've thought that I could make it this far flashing fake smiles
Flashing fake smiles
False Hope