I wanted to love you
Never thought I'd even try
Until we became comfortable
Like clockwork every night
Then I exhausted the part of my brain that
You kept preoccupied
I'm sorry for wasting your time
I warned you off the bat
I'd never be worth that much
But I guess we were both happy
Why do I feel guilty?
We both saw this coming
I'm paying for the risk you took on me
The tender poems and things that you said
The thoughtful playlists you curated
All the life and love you lost on me
When you said there's nothing that you'd regret
Did I make you want to change the subject
'Cause you poured so much but I'm still empty
I keep breaking hearts so they match mine
Yes I know I'm the problem
I should take some time to heal my woes
But I don't want to solve them
I don't even know if it's you
Or you wanting me that I liked
I'm sorry for wasting your time
The tender poems and things that you said
The thoughtful playlists you curated
All the life and love you lost on me
When you said there's nothing that you'd regret
Did I make you want to change the subject
'Cause you poured so much but I'm still empty
I want your attention but I can't give it back
I want everything without any strings attached
I'm selfish
Can't help it
It's never enough
I'm an emotional nymphomaniac
I'll be falling in and out of almost love
So close but I'll forever & always self destruct
I know it's cliche
But it's not you it's pain-
Fully me and the ways that I'll fuck it up
You make time for me you don't have to
Cancel plans while I make my own
I'm sorry
Honestly
I think I'm better off alone